Reschedule’s Weblog

I just got off the phone after 1hour 39minutes and 36seconds of conversation with Utah. He called again today and I almost didnt pick up the phone but Im glad I did. We talked for a while about our families and how everyone is doing and then he talked about how he saw his ex in Rome and got the feeling that she wanted to get back together with him. He then told me how everyone is still shocked that we still talk. Finally I had to stop him and ask why he was telling me all of this and after some hesitation he said that he had no idea.

I then realized that talking about his ex didnt bother me but when I think of Camper and his ex I want to puke. And so while we continued onto other topics I spoke to him like a friend, which is what he is. I gave him advice for getting used to life in the states when he comes back home. He is worried about coming back to his house and having no life to walk back into so I gave him some suggestions as to how to almost restart his life. I offered my help but in no way inferred that I would be coming back into his life. Not in that way. And when we were hanging up I sensed his hesitation again, he was waiting for me to say “I love you”. There was no hesitation on my part. I said good bye and hung up the phone.

I have heard no word from Camper and can only assume he has reached his base in Afghanistan safely. Its hard to believe that today is the first date since we met that he and I have not talked to him in some fashion. You know, its funny almost, Im in more contact with my ex now that I have moved on, and that is the only thing I ever wanted when we were together. I guess the funny part is that he is the one who did this. And you know what? If he hadnt I never would have been online that one day, and I never would have eMailed Camper for days, and we never would have had that amazing first date or any of the amazing dates that followed.

Ugh, its insane, I feel like I have spent all day waiting for word from Camper.