Reschedule’s Weblog

I am so damn happy. I have the love of an incredible man who has amazed me every step of the way.
I talked to Camper today. Well, I talk to him every day, but while we were on the phone this evening I made a point of asking about his clearances, and when he asked why I was curious I let him know about my past. And then when I was sure he was going to have all sorts of things running through his head, he smiled (I could hear it!) and said “What do you think is more important to me? My clearance or you? I could deliver pizzas for the rest of my life as far as Im concerned…” and it was then that I realized I had been holding my breath.

Every time there is something that should scare one of us off, that is when we stick fast. I have never in my life had anyone react like that. I have always felt like I was sitting back seat to something that was always more important, but with Camper … sigh … I just feel so safe and protected.

And then there is Utah. The calling and the texting has not stopped. I know it should not get on my nerves but I hate that in the back of my head I keep thinking: Why now? Why not before? I know I am over my love for him. I am not over my anger. And then, when I am reeling from another Utah roller coaster rides, my doorbell rings and there is a man handing me a box. The man infuriates me and then he sends me a cheesecake.

My friends, you cannot make this shit up.