Reschedule’s Weblog

Dear Baby,

This is my first letter to you and I dont know where to begin. In my life I have had so many false starts, so many times that I thought I was heading in the right direction only to realize that no, no that certainly was not where I needed to be. I have faced a lot of demons and walked away from a lot of tragedy with very few scars to show for it. I have been lucky, Baby, I have been so very lucky and you are only adding to that.

To say that I have nothing to regret, well Baby, I have a few things I might have done differently but what if those changed events would have changed YOU? I cannot imagine.

Right now you are nothing more than a pile of rapidly multiplying cells, taking up house somewhere deep and dark inside of me, and I fear for you every minute of the day. I sleep and worry, I wake and worry, I experience a flutter or a bubble or a hiccup and I worry. Please stay where we have placed you till it is time for you to spread your wings. Please.

I love every single tiny molecule of yours that develops every single second.
I cannot believe how much love I have for you.

Be safe,
Mummy